THE CHOCOLATE AFFAIR - A monologue from the play by Stephanie Alison Walker
BEVERLY: I can't take it anymore!!
I'm up every day at five. Every day. Up at five, go for a jog, take a shower, wake Sally, cook breakfast—something healthy—egg whites, flax, kale, organic coffee, sprouted wheat. Sit down with Dave and Sally for breakfast. Eat a tiny portion. Be sure to leave some on the plate. Always leave some on the plate.
Get dressed. Something feminine, flattering. Kiss Dave goodbye. Make sure to give him a little something worth coming back home to.
Check on Sally. Comb her hair. Pack her lunch. Wait with her for the bus. Hug her goodbye. Make sure that hug lasts all day long...that she feels your arms around her even at recess when the mean kids pick on her because their moms don't hug them enough. Then let go. Watch her walk away, board the bus.
Choke back your tears. Taste the salt slide down the back of your throat. Go back inside. Check yourself in the mirror. Ugh. Turn around. Turn back hoping to see someone else. Cross through the kitchen. Pause. Feel the quiet of the empty house. No one watching. What can you eat? Open the pantry, look inside. Grab the jar of peanut butter. Unscrew the lid. Take a whiff. Stick your finger in the jar of peanut butter. Lick it off. Feel someone watching you. Shit. Turn around to face them. No one's there. Put the peanut butter away. Wash your hands, careful to remove any trace of peanut butter. Reapply lipstick. Head out the door. To work. Again.
This isn't fun anymore. There's something wrong with me.
Although I don't really know anything about this monologue from the play 'The Chocolate Affair', I found that the techniques used in the text were interesting as it explains more about her feelings and emotions. The character in this monoloque, Beverly, mainly speaks in short sentences, which could show how she feels her life is just one giant list of things she has to do in the same routine every single day. This is also shown as the writer uses asyndetic listing where it makes it seem like her life is just one long list of chores, "Up at 5, go for a job, take a shower, wake sally, cook breakfast...". Different types of puntuation has also been used to show the character's thoughts, "cook breakfast—something healthy—egg whites". Dashes are used here instead of brackets, this could be because when brackets are used, it shows that what is said within the brackets aren't necessarily needed or said. Also, because this is a dramatic monologue, brackets are usually used to show stage directions.
The monologue is written in an informal manner and in first person. This is because the character is talking to herself, because of this, the writer has used high frequency lexis to show a more casual approach to the character. The monologue would relate to a target audience of middle aged women who understand the lists of things to do in a single morning and the every day routine that you would suddenly fall in to due to children, husbands and the temptations of having a quick treat without anyone finding out, in this case, a jar of peanut butter. Relating back to my point about how the whole structure of the monologue is like a long list of duties and how the sentences are mostly very short, there isn't a high level of detail. This makes it seem like every sentence is just another boring step in her morning routine.